at first it was the best day i ever had in life, but it turned out the opposite the moment i know u hong and jio girls behind me. furthermore its my friend!!! FML.


LAST MEMORIES SHARED> ALVIN YAP WENG HONG

this is what u sent angiie!!
Dont text me anymore le. I am back with yan ye. Just like that. And me and her havent break. So yup. Dont call or text me le.. <<< 1st msg
Bo Bian leh, she's not e one I love, and just now I send you that msg is to put a show for her, yup. I wont be together with a freak also. I am just treating as a friend. So no point helping her to talk against me. <<< 2nd msg. 


these are what i post on facebook.

-Oh cool. Once. Again u lied that u Are single and behind hong girls. I am dumb enough:) I know that:)

-so came knocking on my door for just the sake of fb account. all he cared for is girls. say single when he is not. why lie u single when u put attached with me? toy with me fun?

-ALVIN YAP WENG HONG!!! from love to doubt from doubt to hate.

-it was actually a damn happy day. it was the one and only day out of the 5 months and 3 days we had that we felt that as if we were on cloud nine. but? u! another lie which made me sink deep deep down. saying u are single even at yesterday, jio-ing another girl. why must it be my friend. first the jio a girl who u met once only to movie, then tell an online girl u seems to like her, then call another girl baby and say u single. now even worst, now call another of my friend and jio her, call her and say u single.!!! FML lah. hate u max!!!

-its hard to accept u hong girls, its even hard to accept they are my friends.

-u blame her for texting u at the wrong tme, u blame me for seeing ur message, why didnt u think why at the first place u hong so many girls?? =(

-why must it be my friend? why? i hope i was blind, i hope i was deaf, i hope i had nvr once know u. but i did, i know u, then like u, then love u. thats why u had the chance to hurt me again and again

-early at this point of time, AWAKE. endless and sleepless night thinking of a bastard. so what? u jio my friend le then after a break, call me a freak? yes i am one. but by doing so, i guess u are no way better.

-knowing that u have no phone, knowing that i will not have any replies. but i still, foolishy sending messages to that number i used to text everyday. why?! why me that u choosed to toy/play with.='(

-someone please save me!! i am thinking of him every minute. what's wrong with me?!!!

-why am i keep finding ways to contact him when i know calling his number can only reach his voicemail. it takes him such easy way for forget me and yet i here missing him. FML!!!
-因为太爱你，所以留不住你？

-tears tears tears. when tgt this 5 months and 3 days, everyday tears. now when it ended, its tsill tears.=(

-我放不下你的原因，因为恨你 还是因为太爱你？ 找不到能够爱你的理由。是因为爱情不需要任何理由？还是，你的一
切，不值得我去爱？
-learn to let go
trying to let go
have to let go
must let go
hard to let go
EVENTUALLY, FAILED TO LET GO

-suddenly remembered how u tried shuffling at the lift and toilet at marina barrage. learning how to shuffle le go club huh? anyone good at shuffling?

-i am not even a small pea in ur eye!!

-when u can see u true smile u dont want. all u want is a fake smile. remember how happy we are till she texted u? and what u said was? "later i sure call her and kan.", i asked why. what u replied? "who tell her text me at wrong timing". hmmm so? u mean u hong my friend no fault. its her fault for texting at the wrong timing? and get me to just ignore what u do?! u mean i can just share u with anyone and everyone? no way

-where got sell fake smile ? i am tired of all these fake smile le. why when one can have what we called happiness they dont want? they choose to do things their way and hurt others like nobody fcuking business!! fair ma?! fair to those tiomxim de ma?! LOVE is liddat play/fool de? its all a game.

-its not ur fault for honging? u said its their fault for texting of replying when u are with me. its not ur fault for doing things behind me. but its my fault for checking?! and excuse me! when we were flying kite happily, who ruin it? i didnt check on u cuz i trust u. its because i suay suay holding the phone when she texted u!!

-suddenly remembered how i used to cheer my gans/friends up when they fall out of love. just like how u guys did. i lost many friends indeed, but i believe, true friends do stay with me. STRONG!.


-thanks for all the cheer ups♥ god didnt close my door, but he closed my "maingate". however, he opened many many doors for me. and i have a choice, to stay or to shine bright. i guess i aimed for the "shine bright" but it will take sometime for me to slowly walk towards the door i want and away from the gate that poked me hard. with scar filled, please pardon me for the speed and time i need to move on♥


-fogo
forget
forgetting
forgotten
♥

-tell u something. if i were really the freak? then why the hell u go down on ur kneel and beg me not to leave? yes, i did cried over u madly, holding u tight. but when it comes to this end, i am not gonna do so twice again. when i cried like mad for u, ur sist posted on FB and say i am pathetic. so when u beg and go on kneel is called? haix. u told ur family stories. then i gotta swallow it all. then when u get me bcak, u tell them i am not bad. but why? cuz the story u said are interesting. i didnt bother to ask u what u tell ur family. however from what my friends told me, i guess i can figure out the "story" u had been telling.


-if i were to say i am fine, dont be surprise that i lie. cuz i am fine had been used so many time till, when asked, i auto hand will type it out.


-Funny. Now I get what they mean. By like mother like son. Yes I did cry to hold him back. But aunty ah, please rememberr how many times ur son kneel in front of me and beg me to stay each time he made mistakes. A son of 20 years old have a mum of 50 years old having the same mindset. Aunty u reap what u sow. Be proud to have him as. Ur son


-After repeating lai one more lai one more. For three times, finally he said, okay done. Take the same picture for three times. Like a cute! Omg why after what he done, I only capture and store those good ones?! Yan ye remember how he betrayed u!!!


-Wtf am I still uploading OUR pictures? Look at my smile? It lasted till only a while. Everything changed when he msg came beep beep into ur phone that I was holding on to. I didn't blame her. But look!! She is attached too ya know!!


-Why are most attached couples emo on Facebook. More of misery than joy. 


-My love for him deep and true dAo even though he do all these I still love him. But again and again he betray me. I am too foolish

-He knows u
He meet u
He like u
He wants u
He loved u
He Feeling fade
He find new one
He hurt u
He find excuses
He dump u
He mocked at u
He insult u
He left u
Found a NEW.
♥

-Just $45 and I cut my finger on my hand and finger. From 9 till now. Worth it ma? About $6 per hour 


-我失去的不只是你。我把你也抛弃了。你不值得我流泪。我不哭了。
真的！
-我受够了等待，所谓的安排。不知不觉眼泪掉了下来！快乐是我的选择， 不是你给的。我明白了爱情并不愉快。 哭过的眼泪也就算了，付出的一切也过去了。我要快乐！ 我能快乐！我会快乐！♥ 你失去我，再也找不回来了！for the fact that u didn't cherish me, this time, I will not turn back no matter how u beg and cry. Even kneeling one more time wun work! I will never cry to hold u back le. U let me slip past ur hands. It's u!!:) take care


-No matter how u trash me, I am still loving myself. I will not stop loving! I believe there are people out there who worth me loving. I am telling myself, without u! Yes u,ALvin yap weng hong, I can survive. !!!
-jianfei? its an excuse, the real reason is no mood to eat, not hungry. dont be surprise if i get thinner. from about 80 to 60 plus. so target 50? hoseh boh!!! ♥

-marina barrage picture is like a sweet, cuz we took it before i saw that message. after i saw the message, jitao cui. everything changed.






Forgetting u may be hard. but still i am trying hard. 

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