♥Yanye Isalwayshappy ♥

Thursday, July 28, 2011

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I did it, too keep u safe. Believe it or not. I rather give up this r/s then to see u hurt. If u didn't jio him one on one at redhil all these jiu wun happen le. Post whatever you want lo. I had given up:) for real

7/28/2011 04:53:00 PM;

Saturday, July 23, 2011

title:{alvin yap weng hong}

its my life.
hey peeps, back blogging again.
sorry for the spams on Facebook.
i know no one is looking at this stupid, singlish blog.
well, at least i know i posted my feelings.
so, days had been filled with ups and downs.
UNCONTROLLABLE.
one wish i hope i can do it,
is to be able to pick myself up and say,

I̶ ̶c̶a̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶l̶i̶v̶e̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶o̶u̶t̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶. Sorry, I can. Definitely can.

if one day i were to be able to say this,
love will never be on my mind.
what had happen,
i dont wish to mention le.
just that when i walk past the place we used to spend at,
i teared.

Chicken rice coffee shop.
the place where u planned the last meal and force me to eat the food when i had already eaten at home.
Lorong 27,
the road where u pull me back when i tried to dash onto the road after u say u wanna leave me.
Vegetarian coffee shop,
the place where i fed u food with tears, fearing u really leave me. the same plate of food we shared.
Under the block,
the place where u tell me u gonna leave me, the place i cried and beg u to stay with me.
Library,
the place i cut and bleed a lot for u. the place u wrote me the last letter.
Aljunied mrt station,
the place we had our last meal together today. u eat finish le u left. i eat only one mouth.
the place u let go of my hands when i pull u back. and left onto the mrt station platform.

its no use for me to rush down to tiong bahru and run all the way to ur house.
u say u still love me,
but still.
u get angry just because i buy my family walfer.
i was beaten up just because i choose to stay overnight ur house.
haix.

walking past the places,
i teared i cry.
i know it will be hard to forget u.
and i know i wun.
i wun forget u, but i gotta get over u.
remember, i will always love u.

nothings gonna change my love for u.

these pictures.
forever in my blog, forever in my heart.
i love u
alvin yap weng hong

7/23/2011 09:24:00 PM;

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

title:{God n girl}

God: why are you crying so badly my dear?
Girl: I just fall out of love & I miss him.
God: let me ask you one more question. Does the guy still loves you?
Girl: *cry even worst* I don't know
God: then why are you crying? He should be the one crying. You lost someone you live and yet for him is, he lost someone who loves him. It's his loss

7/13/2011 09:31:00 AM;

Thursday, July 7, 2011

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When u finally know that ur thought of him not loving u is true, be glad u know it nope. But it wun stop me from continue loving. Weeks or months or years it make take for him to change, I shall wait. Nothing is gonna chAnge my mind. One friend told me, if he is mine n he still loves. Me, he will come back to me. I wun long for this day. As long as I get a chance to stand by him, everyth is fine for me

7/07/2011 02:58:00 PM;

title:{}

since he stopped caring,
i shall stop loving.

7/07/2011 08:09:00 AM;

title:{}

without me u're just happier

7/07/2011 07:56:00 AM;

title:{4th day}

4th day without him,
sleeps are disturbed by memories.
why memories?
because they can never be retrieved anymore.
stay as memories they shall,
without regrets, i should move on.
move on to happiness joy and laughter.

with him on my mind,
i hugged chocolate tight.
will never let it go,
till the day i die.
i once had him mine,
but i choosed to leave him aside,
not because i stop loving,
but because i could no longer hold tight.
yanye is alwayshappy♥XOXO

Love him always.
remembered our code.
770 880 1314 520
longing for his hug,
missing the unreasonable him.
but cant stop thinking,
how he treated the 33,
not that i minded his past.
but feared that he will do the same to me.

when i choosen my friends over him last night,
i know i wun regret.
friends are always the ones,
who cheered me up after my cries.
he said,
弄你笑，我做不到。
不让你哭，我做不到。
tell me not to contact him once again.

when we are tgt,
he had never concentrate on me before.
girls is all he wanted.
not me!
want me to only concentrate on him,
but still i get betrayal from him.
haix.
i know i still had to end this myself,
cuz i gotta set u free.

know why u long stopped sheding tears for me?
cuz u didnt care,
know why u long didnt care?
cuz u dont love,
know why u dont love?
cuz feeling faded.

u said my feeling fade,
and yet who is the one?
you! my heartbreaker!

Labels: love with hurt

7/07/2011 07:42:00 AM;

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

title:{changed photobusket}

felt the coldness when on phone.
thats the end.
grats ah?
haix.
am i just too happy to do anything or just too sad to even shed the tears i am suppose to?
i wanted to quarrel?
great.
i am such girl to you.
nothing but extra and useless in this world??
feel like giving up,
but the feeling had never fade.
if i were to give up only day,
do know that its not because i stop loving,
its because i had to go my way.
to people who really love me instead of someone who claims to love me and yet keep hurting.
the sissors is in my hands and its just my hands cant bear to cut the string off my leg.
its seems so attached to me,
not to my leg,
but to my heart.
i know once i cut it off,
i will bleed,
should i just cut it off or let it remains??
can someone just tell me?
i am tired of listening to his past.
i am afraid to know more.
its more than enough for me le.
i love him,
but i am sure,
i cant accept his past!!
how he hurt the 33 others,
at least i know he played them but didnt physically hurt them.
but he did to me.
why?
cuz i meant NOTHING, simply NOTHING to him.
='(
when can i fcuking stop my tears??!!
i once sung 我爱的人，不是我的爱人.
he told me it will never happen.
but he made it happen.
so what if he meet his friends?
do i care,
i had to act as if i dunno.
he knows i stalk him.
FML FML FML!!!
argh.
slap me up please.
just like how he slapped me,
without mercy.
='(

i can no longer see the smile on his face,

not that he is not smiling,

its because i will never get to see him again!!!

my heartbreaker

ILY!!!

changed picture to more recent de.
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love with hurts

Labels: love with hurts.

7/06/2011 10:27:00 PM;

title:{3rd day}

i put on a strong front to act as is i dont care, i fake a smile for you, so that you could turn your head away. As long as i seems happy to you, you have to beware, cuz when i smile, there are more things hidden in my mind. when i smile, doesnt mean i am happy, why i say i just yawn-ed, do know that i just cried. every single tears, every single drip of blood, it always relates to you. foolish of me to be so useless, to not able to forget you. i wish i could. if only could, i wouldnt have to cry, to get hurt. silly me, all i know is to tiomxim to a guy whom i dont know if he loves me. had benn lied to for over the past two months plus. and yet i am in the dark, thinking you mean your words. your "sorry" is not the word that makes me come back to you, your "i love you" is also not the sentence that i am attached to. its the love i have for you, in me that makes me can't stop loving. if only........... if only life is not like this.

3rd day without him,
feeling better.
thanks to my sec sch friends.
-weitin
-si yun
-xinti
-faith
-jia hui (tan)
-jiahui(lim)
-selina ong
-marcus
and my sist.

its really been so so so long ever since i can smile so freely and happily with my true friends. they brought out the bright smile from me. thanks♥
sister, i love you, thanks for the fun moments just now. ♥ wo ai ni. yeah.

kinda going to let go soon.

7/06/2011 08:07:00 PM;

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

title:{Add him on fbk}

Did he ever love me before?
I really wanna know:(
Parents keep ask why havent break.
Just because I using bb phoned dont mean we stil tgt
Why keep remind me of him?
Sit outside at study room,
Rmb the day when he come up to meet me.
Go second floor,
Rmb the days when we sit on bed and talk.
First floor,
Kitchen, rmb
eating with him.
Carpark, rmb he sitting there to wear shoe.
How?
Everything is abt him:(
How's life without him?
Sucks!!!

Keep. Stalking him.
He want ppl add him, as he wished.
Posted his email on fb get ppl add le
Ppl, add him.
Alvinyap91@hotmail.com
Keep stalk him, get ppl add him le. As he wa nt

Labels: Sad

7/05/2011 06:19:00 PM;

title:{dedicated to Alvin yap weng hong}

not gonna contact alvin anymore.
i know u will see this,
this is dedicated for u,
my one and only love.

Dear Alvin,
you say you gonna convert to christian this week,
by all means,
i know i can't stop you,
and i don't have the rights to,
and i wouldn't even do so.
religion is your way,
your thinking,
the day i choose buddha as my admired one,
and left jesus,
till now, i didn't regret.
this is one thing we all shouldn't have regrets about.
once you chooses jesus as your choice,
keep your promises to him,
he will be your lord, your god,
the one who save you from troubles, worries and fear.

what i had done in this r/s , to me is just something i should do.
but i have to apoplogise for things that i done that hurt you,
whether knowingly or unknowingly.
i'm sorry,

i really had nothing else to say other than this,
"treat your next girl well,
keep your promises,
protect her from violence rather then bring her violence.
give her the secure and love every girl should have."

this r/s is just like a lesson learnt.
not to believe others easily,
be it the one whom you love or the one you think you can trust.
i loved you and that's the fact.

in my blog now i shall say,
like i sent you the message,
the day i remove my leg de thing,
its the day i stop loving you.
one day it remains on my leg,
one more day of loving you.

i wouldn't regret giving my love for you,
i wouldn't blame you for the hurt and cries and tears i shed for you.
what i regret most is,
my foolish-ness the day i promise him to get to know you.

even thousand or millions of words can't express my feelings.
just three words.
i love you.
sadness, tears, emotional hurt is all i had been feeling.
the feeling of being cheated about yingying thing,
fear to lose you about peiyan, stephanie and selina thing.
shall not say what happen here.
you should know.

i know you will read my blog,
from now on,
i will express all what i wanna say here.
you dont want me contact you i wouldn't le!
happy?!

please please please smoke less and drink more.
go a check up for your cough and back problem.
take care of yourself
love others like how you wanna be loved.
treasure those who love and care for you.

you're my heartbreaker
love you always.
have fun in your r/s with jesus.
love him with all your heart heartbreaker.

love had us falling apart without trust, fate and
most importantly, your fading feeling for me.
this song goes,
我们都没错，
只是不适合，
我要的我当时不懂得，
快乐是我的，
不是你给的，
幸福要自己负责。

也是，幸福要自己负责。
i blame no one but myself for my failed relationship.
i hate myself even more than ever.
hate myself more than i love and hate you.

thats the end le.
in short,
and last words,
take care of yourself.

BYEBYE my love

By : Yan ye

Labels: love had us falling apart.

7/05/2011 04:54:00 PM;

title:{Day two without him}

13 weeks of love I devoted.
With tears, hurt, love and cries.
Why do I always had to end r/s this way?
Joseph this way, Alvin this way.
But one thing for sure is, they both loved me.
They are easy come easy go,
Forget and live on life well and easy.
This is call true love when one can easily forget their loved ones?
Is it wrong for me to love?
Day two without him.
Tears and cries once again.
The ones who are there for me often is the one who I neglect.
I gave up dance competition, study time, cca points and lots more
All that I get from him?
Unsecured love.
Worry for when is he two timing me again,
Worry for when I will get the hits and shouts again.
Everyday praying, please make me feel loved.
I did say my prayers.
Even the three days beside him..
I prayed for him to be well and happy,
Even after I leave him.

I love you Always.
Alvin yap weng hong!

Labels: I have to go. Leaving memories behind to. Exchange for happiness, When time is up

7/05/2011 02:49:00 PM;

Sunday, July 3, 2011

title:{love him}

Love him always. but still good things have to come to an end. =(
will still love and miss u de.
please forget me.
i'm sorry

7/03/2011 05:02:00 PM;

My Past.